Brief history

I wont bore you with the details of my past relationships. But basically... They all either upset me, controlled me, cheated, or just didnt understand me.
Nearly all of my ex's hate me. And as for guys I have fucked out of a relationship. Nearly all of them are nasty. See, I went through a phase of being VERY lonely. So I drank alot, and slept with pretty much any moderatly okay guy I thought there could be a future with... Sadly, me being a mug believed the whole ''Oh yeah I really want to be with you'' gag. Yeah, by be with me they ment just lead me on to get a shag then fuck off. It is actually pathetic. But yeah, when i say nearly all of them are nasty, I say that because there was one. Jack. Ever since i met him i wanted him. He is a metaller / hippie. fucking beautiful. Long blonde wavy hair, blue eyes, strong, tall, smart, interesting, feminine, understanding. UGH he is everything perfect. Shame he dosent want me eh? I worship that boy, he is such an amazing person. He dosent even know how i feel about him though. I could never get the balls to tell him. I did manage to fuck him though.... It was two days after christmas. I hate this story... so to cut it short, I was nearly in tears with happiness, he was soo drunk he threw up on me :/ sexy :/ he didnt even remember it the next day..... :( Meh.
But yeah you get the picture.. dicks in the past.... worship Jack... you got it ;)