Lynch.

So. I spent the night with A last night. Interesting? Yet again, sex was not completed due to him not being able to ''keep it up'' when he is stoned. If you have had the experiamce of this you will understand how painful it is, the fact that you cannot even sexually exite the person who loves you.

We departed on the words '' bye then ''. And they say romance is dead? -.-

So yeah. I know i seem like a bitch, but im meeting this guy 'lynch' friday. Who is a complete and utter using man slag. He is dating this trampy stuck up tart who is too big for her boots. He goes around fucking anything and everything... I know he is using me... but its nice to feel wanted again. I have known Lynch three years, and i suppose in a way he has always been on my shelf. He is overly charming. I just want passion, although i doubt ill be getting that anytime soon. Seems a girl with Bi-polar and an obsession with whiskey issnt what men look for. I am living on a thin line between reality and my thoughts... that aint attractive hahaha. So to make up for it, I have been dieting and working out harcore. Still finding it difficult to destroy my addiction for chocolate, bacon, and crisps >.<

My week is building up to Lynch... I just hope he dont cancel on me and leave me standing there in my heels on my own like some cheap hooker.

#Must learn to not depend my happiness on other people.
over and out.