Love?

Well. I have decided to to start Blogging while I sort out my love life. I am currently dating someone, happily? I have been with him for over six months now. Still early days I know... I could bang on about how lovely and funny, not to mention charming and good looking he is ect. But I am trying to stop doing that. It bores people.
A (my boyfriend) is an upgrade from the dicks i have been with. Like, genuine marriage material. I have never been able to open up to anyone like I can to him. Such a shame we are both wankers.
As much as I love and care for him... It's becoming a bit of a drip. I dont go out anymore. I am misreble all the time. His friends and family hate me. Our relationship just feels like its the same shit different day. Yet I cant manage loosing him. If you are in an intence relationship, you will know what i mean. Literally like the phrase '' You cant live with them, but cant live without them''.
Ahh well.
We are on the verge of breaking up. Have been for a while. The truth is, he cannot trust me because I cheated. And I cant trust him because he has eswell. A relationship cannot be built on unstable grounds... But yeah, A and myself (as much as we hate to think it) will end. I am kind of coming to grips with it... he issnt. The funny thing is even if we do split I still imagine spending the rest of my life with him :S

But I will get to that later.
So yeah hello. This is just a low down on how things are with my boyfriend... I'll get to the complex parts and heartbreaks later. YAY   -.-